I need to get used to this, I guess. I need to get used to the fact that they aren’t my friends anymore, or the fact that they could let a friendship go so quickly without me doing anything. I’m going to have to get used to staying home most of the weekends, glares in the hall ways, and whispers. I’m going to have to get used to my last 4 months basically alone. I’ll have to get used to not having any senior close friends for graduation. I’ll be alone. I need to get used to this. I’m so fucking sick of this. I’m tired of this complete bullshit that I HAVE to get used to. You know what? fuck no. I will have better friends than that. I already have a couple, some don’t go to my school though, but I’m already closer with the girls in my CA class then you guys. Want to know why? They don’t judge me, expect ANYTHING from me. 

I’ve been ignored by all them for the past three days expect a couple. I’ve been able to hang out with them like morgan, ingrid, ryan and (i wish) cristina<3

That night when I was getting pointed out all my flaws from a friend who I thought actually considered me a friend, it killed. I was crying on my kitchen floor and did some stupid stuff that I now regret. I can’t deal with this all the time. 

I’m really understanding the meaning of having a couple of true friends in high school mean the most, not just a bunch of friends who don’t care.